My nephew would have turned 20 today. Makes me sad to think of how young he was when he was taken off the earth. I called my brother today and he didn't seem to be in bad spirits but he wasn't home alone yet either. I worry a lot about him. I don't know what I would do if I lost a child. I know he feels that in someway it is his fault, when it isn't. I would probably feel the same way. I really miss my nephew even though I didn't see him all the time, like I did when he was little. He was a big part of my life and more like a little brother since we were only 7 years apart in age. I find little things all the time and it makes me remember some of the memories that we had together. I guess that makes him still alive in my heart, which he will always be. I can't help but to play that last Christmas day that we shared over in my head. It is amazing how clear that day is to me since it has been almost 2 years ago.
Happy Birthday Randy, even if you are here with us to celebrate!