I am new to this community, just joined a few minutes ago.
I am looking for a place to share my experiences as well as be able to hear what others have gone through and what things have helped them cope with their loss.
I lost my father to murder four years ago. I was 20 at the time; he was 55. I live in the United States but my family is from a small country in Latin America. I was home on a leave of absence from school at the time, and I was blessed to be able to spend the last two months of his life with him. However, I do have to deal with great guilt because I could have chosen to study in my home country rather than in the US and would have spent more time with my father. I realize there was no way for me to know what would happen, but I struggle with my decision anyway. There are other aspects of this story that cause me great stress, fear, and sadness constantly, and I would love to be able to find people to talk to about my loss that have been through the sudden loss of a parent. My friends are sympathetic and will listen when I need them to, but it is difficult to be able to talk to somebody when I know they don't know at all how I feel. I also don't like to burden them with my feelings, so I have decided to seek groups that meet (albeit virtually) for this purpose. I am looking forward to what any of you have to say in this regard.
Thank you for the owners and moderators of this group for making it possible.